smoke fills the air
you sit back
in an uncomfortable chair
freezing
while around you there are lights
dancing
smoke fills the air
people are laughing
and touching and talking
everything
for a moment you feel
nothing is real
and you are pissed off
where to go to now
you try and think about the leaves
and
birds and fish and sharks
but the whole ocean evaporates
in front of you
what is to be done
you want to make a future
your parent's future
or your grandparent's future
something stable and bright
to forget
wouldn't it be easier to forget
to be bathed in now
maybe work through it
or you could step over all of
it
leave it behind
saying
now I have a new name
its like everybodys
call me what you will
make it up
but there's still the problem of memory
smoke fills the air
and here you are at the beginning
the shoe shine man will be waiting
just outside the door
so you can take your shining boots
home with you